Advice can be really contrasting.
Psychology says acknowledge your feelings. Manifestation says believe what you want. Spirituality says accept the reality. Religion says irrespective of reality, you do good.
Growing up, my mother taught me to be nice. And I followed that principle.
And I feel that principle is fucking up my life.
My in laws walk over me. I am unable to be decisive. I feel confused whether I should take revenge or let things go.
I am at the point where I feel guided by a force which says forget fear and forgive others.
My mind keeps wandering like a monkey. My husband says I have ego – and that may be true because I could relate to the book “Ego is your Enemy.”
Maybe it is time to work on my ego. More than anything it’s time to move forward.
Rather than ruminating in the past and feeling weakened by the present, I only want to move forward with a 1000X pace towards my future.
There will be 10,000 things I will need to accomplish, let me gracefully tell myself, “YES, I CAN DO IT.”
No feat on this planet is unachievable. And let me work towards making what I want a reality possible.
I do feel often trapped constantly. I am not sure how to even overcome it. I can only take one step at a time. I can keep trying my best.
Let me accept that I can only do 1 thing at a time. There are always going to be 1000 things to do – but what is it that really matters to me and I wish to achieve – that is what I need to work on.
I want to let go of the complete home cooking responsibility being on me. Do not wait for some miracle to happen.
Create your own menu, stick to facing the consequences of such drama..
I urge you to be strong and to know you will get yourself out of this mess before the year ends.
As the year is ending, I remember the promises I had made to myself.
I had promised that in 2025 I would be free of all cooking responsibility. That is the timeline I had in mind. I am at the end of November.
December remains.
How am I going to tackle it?
1 day at a time. 1 task at a time.
Before December 2024, I will land myself a stable job paying me Rs. 50,000 / month.
In what niche do I want that? What are the ideas I have?
- Provide service – which skills do I have to provide services in?
- Digital Marketing – I will need to setup a team
- Content Writing
- Public Speaking training
Even as i type this – I wander off. But what good am I doing by avoiding these conversations? I am only harming myself in this process and my future.
Abhi bhi time hai – if I create a vision for myself for when I am 30 and I decide and stick to what I need to do each day – success will be mine.
Ask yourself difficult questions and work hard on answering them.