A Woman’s Diary

I haven’t been feeling all that great this past week. I think it’s due to the amount of hours I’m working since the job is so repetitive. Well, that’s my guess anyways. It’s kind of like a little depression mood that I’m in. I’m not too happy and I have A LOT on my mind in regards to various things.

Wouldn’t it be nice if you had all the time in the world to just kick back and relax so you can think things through properly? Gee…that would be nice and it’s sort of what I’m longing for. Maybe it’s just the winter blues I’m feeling right now. I don’t know.

All I do know is that I can’t wait until the summer rolls around so I can go outside and lay out in my patio and read a good book. I have way too many books that I bought from Amazon that need to be read. How many more months until summer again?? *sigh*

I’ve been thinking about a lot of things over the past week. About what? Well, I’m debating whether or not I want to buy a car first or move out into my own apartment. Let me weigh my options here.

Getting my own apartment:

• freedom
• independence
• get more pets
• must pay rent + extras
• bus everyday to work
• need money to furnish place

Getting my own car:

• freedom
• independence
• drive anywhere and to work
• can make monthly payments
• need to get insurance
• need to finish my driver’s license

Hum….I’ve been thinking that one of the main reasons I wanted to move out on my own was to get more pets. Another reason was that I wanted to be able to work out and eat nutritious foods without family commenting about my decisions.

Now I’ve come to realize that if I get my own vehicle (would be a Mazda Tribute), I can easily sign up to a gym and be able to drive there on my own whenever I wanted to. Well we all know that you need exercise and a balanced diet to lose weight which is what I want.

If I get the vehicle instead, I can still live at home for the time being and still be able to have freedom and independence. The only thing I won’t be able to get is more pets since my parents don’t want any more pets in their house…which I understand completely because it is THEIR HOUSE!

I’m currently leaning towards getting my own vehicle because to me, it’ll be a lot cheaper than going to rent out a place. Yes I have to purchase it, have gas money, and also pay for insurance…but it would all be cheaper than spending $700+ a month for having my own place, paying utilities, and paying for other things like bus fair, internet, plus I would have to furnish the place too and who knows how much that could total to if I need furniture for every room.

So getting the vehicle seems like the logical choice in my mind. The best part is that I would be able to drive anywhere I wanted without having to ask someone for a ride or checking to see if a bus goes that route. The main reason I haven’t joined a gym yet is because of the fact that I have no transportation there. I don’t want to ask my family for a ride because I’m sure they think that wasting money for a gym membership is ridiculous, and who knows how many buses I would have to take to get there. Plus, I’m sure it would take at least 2 hours just to get to the gym I want to go to if I were to take the bus. So there is no point in doing that.

Okay…I love writing things out like this. It makes decisions soooo much more easier because I have come to realize what decision/goal I will work towards. Now I just have to learn to save my money in the meantime instead of spending it everytime I get it.

Plus, I have to complete my driver’s license around the spring time. Yes I know…I’m 22 years old without a full driver’s license. I do have my G1 which is that you’re allowed to drive with someone who has had their license for five years. I need my G2 in order for me to drive alone. Then I need to get my G which is basically having the whole package. You can drive whenever you want, anytime with anyone.

Ya I know…I should of got this way back when I was 16 years old like most people. The truth was that I was in a car accident with my older sister the year prior to me turning 16 which resulted in a little fear of driving. I didn’t feel ready to be able to drive around and handle the responsibilities of a vehicle. So now, being older and I guess a little wiser, I’m ready to start being more independence and get this show on the road. LOL!

1 hour for the job interview and then I got hired right on the spot!!

Time to celebrate!!! Yippy!!

As you can see from my previous post, I listed a bunch of goals & new year resolutions I wanted to accomplish. It seems that some are coming faster than I thought.

• I just applied for a job a few days ago and received a call back today. I just have to call them back tomorrow morning because it was too late to return the call. A friend of mine who currently works there has informed me that if you get the call back, you’re practically hired!! Yippy!!!

• If I get the full time job, then I can start making & saving money. I have already decided that once I get at least $5000 saved in the bank, I’m moving out. Of course moving out into my own place was one of my new years resolutions which goes hand in hand with getting the full time job. Yippy #2!!!

• Trying to better my health was another resolution I had. The only way I know I will accomplish this is if I’m living on my own. It’s just impossible to even try to better my life by living at home. How so? It’s difficult since my mom makes the best meals ever. If you say you don’t want it, she takes it as an offense. Half the time it’s just too good to decline.
  
  Then there’s the fact that I want to buy more exercise equipment. The only problem is, is that there’s nowhere to put it in our house. Not to mention that whenever I even try to workout, it seems my parents constantly ask how you doing, how long you working out for, did you lose any pounds today, etc. It gets annoying after awhile and doesn’t help at all.
  
  Also, I’m not the one who does the grocery shopping in our house. My parents do all that. So I don’t really get to pick what I want to bring home and maybe eat for the week. It’s just whatever is in the fridge. Plus, I’d love to keep track of everything I eat on a white board in the kitchen. Of course this is impossible because my mom obviously won’t let me stick that on the wall. Both my parents would think it’s a ridiculous idea.

Can you see how these three new year resolutions are intertwined? One won’t work without the other and none will work without getting a job first. I really hope I get the job!! Seriously, I need it badly because I got a major bill to pay, plus I think I need to pay money for my income tax due to making money online. So it all starts with getting the job. *crosses fingers*

Yup…it’s 2008 already! Crazy how time flies by. This year should be exciting has I have a few events to look forward to. I also have some resolutions/goals I want to accomplish. Hopefully I’ll be able to do them.

Events to take place in 2008:

• nephew baptism
• sister’s wedding later this year

My new year resolutions:

• get a full time job
• move out into my own place
• try to better my health
• embrace God in my life

Other things I want to accomplish:

• write more poetry
• make my own rosary
• spend less money on Ebay
• further develop my photography portfolio
• save at least $10,000 by the end of the year

Ya…the last one there is what I just thought about right now. I suck at saving money and have serious issues with that since I like to spend all the money I earn. So that is a realistic goal I have set for myself because I usually take money out of my savings to pay for things instead of using it to save. *sigh* …and yes I have chequings accounts for spending too, so I need to get in a habit of using my savings account only for saving money.

Yup…it’s 2008 already! Crazy how time flies by. This year should be exciting has I have a few events to look forward to. I also have some resolutions/goals I want to accomplish. Hopefully I’ll be able to do them.

Events to take place in 2008:

• nephew baptism
• sister’s wedding later this year

My new year resolutions:

• get a full time job
• move out into my own place
• try to better my health
• embrace God in my life

Other things I want to accomplish:

• write more poetry
• make my own rosary
• spend less money on Ebay
• further develop my photography portfolio
• save at least $10,000 by the end of the year

Ya…the last one there is what I just thought about right now. I suck at saving money and have serious issues with that since I like to spend all the money I earn. So that is a realistic goal I have set for myself because I usually take money out of my savings to pay for things instead of using it to save. *sigh* …and yes I have chequings accounts for spending too, so I need to get in a habit of using my savings account only for saving money.

Every night I log onto Youtube and watch videos for hours. I’m not joking. I find so many interesting videos about a variety of topics. Some of my favourites are finding videos about scams where they warn you to beware. I watch so many of these kinds of videos all the time.

The latest one I was looking at took about twenty five minutes of my time. It’s all about luxury goods and counterfeit items. If you ever buy things online, you’ll definitely want to watch this video. Trust me…it’s a real eye opener on the things that are going on in this world.

I was snapping photos yesterday and ended up taking pictures of my Christmas tree. I put on the lights and was able to take this shot of it lighten up. Pretty isn’t it?

Continuing on from my last post, I have yet to get my nose pierced. I’m thinking about going either sometime this week or the next. I promised my younger sister that I would pay for her “marilyn piercing”. If you don’t know what that is, it’s wear you have a piercing in between you smile crease. Click here to see what I mean.

I’m not sure how my parents are going to react once I get it done. I mentioned it to them already and they weren’t pleased. They said I have too much time on my hands and should go get a full time job. Meh…I kinda agree. I do have to get a full time job in the new year because I’ll be out of school for the time being.

Anyways, I just hope they don’t disown me or something just because of a piercing. Yes I know…crazy ain’t it? Who knows what my parents will do. They didn’t care about my tattoo. And they didn’t care when I got my ears pierced a second time. Heck, my mom pierced them for me! LOL! So hopefully they won’t be too accept with a nose piercing.

Only time will tell…

It has been such a snowy day today. It started last night and went right through the morning. Snow, snow, and more snow. Then it was a little bit of freezing rain too. You know what that makes…ICEY ROADS! Thankfully, I didn’t even leave the house today. Yeah right, I don’t want to go slip and sliding down the street. That’s happened once before and it was scary as heck!!

I was listening to the news since my parents had the tv so loud and the weather guy said that we are getting more snow and probably freezing rain too. I’m no looking forward to it and I’m sure as hell ain’t going to school. Geeze…to get to my school is like a half hour away. A half hour of driving in these horrible conditions. No thanks! I’d rather be snug and safe tucked away in my house then out on the room with this winter weather.

I was reading my local newspaper online and they said that calls to CAA were insane. So many people had dead batteries or were stuck in the snow. I can’t imagine working for them. You’d be called all the time during the winter because some people just don’t know how to drive. Then again, it’s also the snow to blame too.

As I mentioned in some of my other blogs and boards I frequent, I’m planning on getting my nose pierced. When will this happen? Probably before Christmas of this year. Yippy!! I’m excited LOL!

Anyways, after reading up on lots of information online, I have decided to get it done on the right side. Yes I know their are myths about getting on either side, but I don’t care about those myths.

What are the myths?

• Left side - suppose to ease/help childbirth & fertility
• Right side - suppose to mean that your gay

Of course both are just myths and having a nose ring on either side is a personal preference. It’s silly how people come up with these things. I remember back in high school, if a girl wore a kilt with a pin in it, you had to wear it on a certain side or else it meant that you are bisexual.

Where to people come up these things?? I think whatever choice you make is just your personal preference. It had nothing to do with your sexuality. When will people grow up and stop with the stupid myths.

I have made my official decision. I’m not continuing on with the program I’m currently in. I’ll return to it at anther time in my life. For now, I just want to do something I love and I’m good at. That is, photography. Of course this decision as made a rough mark in mine and my parents relationships. They don’t see it the way I see it which becomes really frustrating. It also seems that I’m a failure in their eyes…which is quite upsetting to me.

I just wish that they would be supportive of my decision and allow me to deal with whatever consequences come from it. It’s my life and my decisions, not theirs. I’m still very upset right now. I have been for the entire morning and yesterday. Man…if I had a lot of money and a steady fulltime income, I would of moved out long time ago. They just don’t see me as an independent person which is very heartbreaking because they think I need to 24/7. In reality, I don’t. I’m more than capable of doing things on my own and making my own decisions.

My parents have always been this way to both my sisters and myself. It gets really frustrating. It’s like they don’t allow us to spread our wings and learn from our mistakes. *sigh*…If only they realize what they are doing and make changes for better things.

Yup…I’m been thinking about this for the past week. I think I’m dropping out of my program in college. It’s a two year program and I’m currently in my third semester. I just can’t take it anymore. I thought it was going to be great, but it’s just so boring and not really want I want to do in life.

My goal is to become a professional photographer. I started taking night classes last year. I stopped that because I decided to take a two year program so I would still be covered under my father’s insurance. I’m starting to think that was a bad idea because all I did was spend money instead of save.

I told my mother and sisters about my plan of leaving. They were not impressed. They think it’s because the money and that I should continue it because I’m nearly. I just don’t want to anymore. I want to get my wheels in motion and actually do something I like. So I can work at a factory of some sorts as a labourer for a few months, saving up money as I go along. Then I can continue taking those photography courses until I’m finished. The great thing is that they are night classes so I could be still working while still attending those classes.

I’m not sure how my father will react when I let him know my decision. My sister sort of mentioned it but I don’t think he really heard her because he didn’t really say anything to me. I know this could be a potential stupid idea, but I’m just sick of the program already. I want to do something I enjoy a lot and I’m good at. When I was in the photograph classes, I got 90% + in my courses…except for history of photography because that was slightly boring and I disliked my teacher.

My decision will be made by the end of this month since I have to pay for next semester tuition by November 26th. At this point, my decision is not to continue with the program.