A Woman’s Diary

Have you ever wanted to run away from your current life?

That’s how I feel right now. I just want to go on vacation for a month or even a cruise and get away from all the mayhem and bullshit.

I just want to relax, take it easy, and leave all my worries behind. Things are getting pretty stressful. Time is ticking away and even that is stressful to think of.

Personal issues…we all have them. Mine are, let’s just say, suffocating me at the moment. Just feels like I can’t breathe and find myself.

I need to go to the ocean or even a lake. The water soothes me and lets me think clearly. Nothing else in the world will ever do the magic that it does to me.

Ya I know…crazy talk here, but it’s true. That’s my “sane” place to go. I need to go to it soon…very soon before I completely lose it.

I’m so tempted to buy a plane ticket, pack my stuff, and leave without telling anyone in my family until the actual departure time. Maybe then, they’ll all wake up and see the bigger picture.

Yes…I’m unemployed, as in…I don’t have a “real 9-5 job”. I do jobs here and there on the web, but it’s not the same. Either is the money for that matter.

I was able to spend ludicrous amounts of money when I was employed. I’d buy anything and everything I wanted without even thinking about it. Nowadays, I have to watch my spending and try to budget as much as I can. I can’t splurge on stuff like how I use to.

Jobs in my area suck. I want to move out of my city so badly…words can’t even express it. It’s too dull and boring here. I have been looking for jobs elsewhere in neighbouring cities and even random ones that are pretty far like jobs in Dallas.

But still…how can I move to another city without having any money to begin with? Ughh…life sucks sometimes…especially now.

The weather completely sucks around here. It is absolutely freezing even with the furnace on. I think I need some kind of heated blanket to keep me nice and warm.

I’m usually never cold either. Maybe the heat is not coming out of the vents properly in my room. I’m not sure what it is, but it’s way too cold here.

I can’t wait until all the nice sunny weather comes around. That way, I can relax and enjoy the summer breeze. I’m not even sure what I’ll be doing this summer. I have so many ambitions and thoughts about it, but I’m still not sure.

The future is a little difficult to think about at the moment. So many decisions and choices I have to go through before then. Stress…hate it.

Yes…keeping a journal or diary is actually good for you according to this article.

I had already assumed so because I heard this plenty of times before. Even some therapists suggest it to patients who are struggling with certain issues in their lives.

When I was younger, I had diaries with those little lockets. I’m sure most people can recall them. I stopped writing in diaries because of nosy people in my family. Then, I learned about blogging and have been blogging about my life ever since.

I’m actually considering going back and writing journals again. There’s something about actually inking it yourself that makes it even more personal. Plus, I like having a journal with me wherever I am, so I can write thoughts down and reflect at a later time. With blogging, well…I don’t have a laptop, so I can’t just blog anywhere. I have to be physically at a computer. But even so, it’s just not that intimate as opposed to writing in a journal yourself.

Plus, there’s actually things in my personal life that are really starting to affect me more than it should. Things that make you think both good and bad things…sometimes horrible even. Things I cannot and will not post online because they are that private. But c’est la vie.

Gotta love the internet and the random things you can encounter like a topic such as vaginal dryness. I’ve seriously never heard of it until today. Actually feel bad if some women suffer from this and have to use creams and other medications to fix this issue. I hope I never have to endure something like that. *knocks on wood*

Yes…I can be superstitious sometimes and the knocking on wood actually makes me feel better. LOL.

Anyways, I feel overwhelmed with things I have to do and things I have to figure out in my life. Just seems like there are never enough hours in a day.

I was talking to a good friend of mine the other day, and he was complaining about how his insurance for his car has rates that are through the roof. I felt bad and even suggested where my family switched to because it’s so much more better.

Yes…almost everyone in my family switched from Company A to Company B because of their insurance rates where unbelievable. I can’t believe how some companies try and scam you.

Thank goodness we changed though. The guy is always so helpful and makes the best deals possible.

My sister’s birthday is coming up - February 17th. I don’t really have a clue what I’m going to get her.

I might have to go with something hopefully easy such as clothes, but even that can become difficult because of her sense of style. Humm…maybe I’ll check out jewelry or some Oakley watches. Maybe even some handbags.

Ughh….you’d think I’d know what she wants by now considering her birthday is a few days away. *sigh*

I always leave getting gifts for the last minute. >_<

So many people have been asking me what kind of weight loss pills I’ve tried out. To be honest..the only thing I did try was hoodia but that lasted a whole ONE DAY.

Yes…just one day..Why??

Because I hate taking any kind of pill that I don’t think my body really needs. I even refuse to take aspirin. Only on rare occasions where I’ve got a headache from hell will I take it.

I truly believe that your body can heal pretty much anything without the need for drugs/medication of any kind.

I have so much time to think about things these days, that I get mentally exhausted. And no, I’m not joking.

I think about all sorts of things from money, to my social life, things I have to do, about life insurance, car problems, and not to mention my own personal issues that I’m trying to deal with.

It just seems life gets harder each and every day and it’s not like I’m stressing from marriage or children. I have neither.

Ughh….just wish I can figure things out.

My nephew makes me laugh at the funny and weird things he does. In his bedroom, are my sister’s old tv stands which look more like shelf connected and store his books, some toys, etc. But he is a little more creative and likes to crawl into the shelves and hide there.

Sometimes it will be out of the blue that he does this, and I’m left thinking, what are you doing! Hahaha…but he turns and looks at your with these little dimples and smiles back at you then giggles. You can’t stay mad at him for long. He’s such a cutey pie.

I received this as an email today and decided to share it with the rest of you. I did not create this nor do I take credit. Just passing it along because it’s funny as hell. Enjoy!

The Man Rules­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­

At last a guy has taken the time to write this all down

Finally , the guys’ side of the story. (I must admit, it’s pretty good.) We always hear “the rules” from the female side.

Now here are the rules from the male side.

These are our rules!
Please note.. these are all numbered “1 ”
ON PURPOSE!

1. Men are NOT mind readers.

1. Learn to work the toilet seat.
You’re a big girl. If it’s up, put it down.
We need it up, you need it down.
You don’t hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

1. Sunday sports It’s like the full moon
or the changing of the tides.
Let it be.

1. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want.
Let us be clear on this one:
Subtle hints do not work!
Strong hints do not work!
Obvious hints do not work!
Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That’s what we do.
Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument.
In fact, all comments become Null and void after 7 Days.

1. If you think you’re fat, you probably are.
Don’t ask us

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one

1. You can either ask us to do something
Or tell us how you want it done.
Not both.
If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials…

1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings.
Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will be scratched.
We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say “nothing,” We will act like nothing’s wrong.
We know you are lying , but it is just not worth the hassle.

1. If you ask a question you don’t want an answer to, Expect an answer you don’t want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine… Really .

1. Don’t ask us what we’re thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball
or golf.

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!

1. Thank you for reading this.

Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight;

But did you know men really don’t mind that? It’s like camping.

Pass this to as many men as you can - to give them a laugh.

Pass this to as many women as you can - to give them a bigger laugh.

I must say, some people are extremely creative when they make parodies or spoofs of movies, shows, and celebrities. This parody in the video below is a rundown of the hit movie Twilight starring Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart.

I couldn’t stop laughing because of stupid but funny things they do - especially the mermaid part and when the guy who is playing “James” comes into the video. Just watch it below to see what I mean. Hahaha.

Can’t believe some of the stories I’ve been reading online. Most are from DailyMail (aka Mail Online) since it’s one of the top news websites I frequent everyday. Here’s just a few articles that are worth a read.

• Black cab driver ‘drugged and molested 14 passengers’ - A black cab driver drugs passengers with spiked drinks before sexually assaulting them.
• Illusionist almost drowns trying to escape water tank on Uri Geller’s live TV show - A female illusionist and mind-reader nearly drowned on live TV as she attempted to escape from a tank of water on the Uri Geller show.
• John Travolta threatened by alleged extortion plotters over a photo of his dying son, Jett - Grieving John Travolta is the center of an alleged extortion plot that is said to involve a photograph of his son Jett that was taken as he was dying.

Ugh…is all I can say about the three stories above.

The first about the cab driver who faked a lottery win and got his passengers to drink champaign to celebrate - which was spiked. Then he molests them. WTF?? Don’t forget to check out the image of a time line near the bottom of that story of all the alleged victims. Crazy stuff.

The second of a dumbass illusionist who would risk her life for what…to be a mind reader and figure out the code to get out of the tank? Sorry, you’re not Edward Cullen there. >_<

The third - which is absolutely disgusting - of idiots who took a photo of Travolta’s son while he was dying and are now trying to get John to pay up or else they are releasing the photo to the highest bidder. I can’t believe someone would even DO THAT!! Greedy, selfish, pigheaded bastards who would do anything for a quick payday from a family’s pain and agony over the death of their son.

WHAT IS THIS WORLD COMING TO?!!

If you haven’t looked at this national crisis, more and more humans are becoming overweight.

Not just that, but they are also feeding their pets the same thing that they end up eating. This results in some fat cats and dogs which is definitely a problem since we’re not suppose to be overweight. Just do a quick search on the web, and you’ll see how true it is.

Just like how it’s bad for humans to be overweight, it’s the same for pets too. I know I know…you’re probably thinking, isn’t there some sort of diet pills for pets?

I highly doubt that, plus I wouldn’t even want to take it anyways. Who knows what’s in there and you never know if it could potentially cause you harm in the long run.

I’d want a doggy treadmill or something to work it all off.

Has anyone ever tried fat burner before?

A friend of mine recommended it and said they burn a lot of fat using a similar product & working out. I’m not entirely sure if I’d try it or not.

It’s hard to find decent products that will help with burning fat. There’s so many that you find in drugstores, but how many of them actually work??

Hum…maybe I’ll do a little searching on the web after I get a list of the ones at my local drugstore. Then I’ll see what others have said about them.

That might work.